The Sunshine Within | August 2022

Happy Monday! ☀️

How amazing is it that it’s the eighth month of the year already?!?

Take this Monday to reflect on the wealth and abundance among that which surrounds you.

If you’re seeing this, you have greatness within you.

Humbly Embrace all that you are.

Make the younger version of you proud and the future version of you worthy.

History shares patterns and pain with nothing to gain and yet habits that will lead us to the same yet remain.

Courageously move forward.

Be determined to live each moment with blissful joy as you diligently pursue your life’s work.

Don’t allow negativity to crush your dreams.

Don’t allow the darkness to win.

It may take sometime before you can radiate outwards the sunshine within, but work on this. Your daily life will reflect everything you choose to ignore, become, entertain or deflect.

But if patterns hold true, history rewards those on a lifelong pursuit.

Some with physical treasures, others with time, others with wisdom, understanding, and some with artistic talent, just to name a few. Rewards need not be the primary goal, after all, we don’t know just how long we are here for.

Cherish each moment as if it were your last, but naively pursue goals that will outlive you. The ripples we make while we’re around have a way of affecting others and sticking around.

If you’ve made it this far, I’d like to thank you for your time, as you’ve now intertwined your journey with mine.

Have yourself a Marvelous Monday!

withallmysweetness,

Marii [:),<3.]

Facing your own insecurities, self-doubts, issues and faults is a part of deciphering yourself

[3AM]

As someone who’s struggled with low self-esteem along other likely undiagnosed things which maybe someday I’ll go to the doc about.

It’s rather easy to get triggered by negativity.

To allow someone to take your inner peace because they can’t seem to find their own.

I haven’t always dealt with it in the best of ways if we’re being completely honest.

I can recall being called a “stupid-mexican” by one of my peers in what was it maybe 4th or 5th grade just because we were all playing some game in gym and I got distracted… so I was in their way. Which yes admittedly I was. But I wasn’t trying to start trouble. I must’ve been in some idea 💡 loop, to get distracted. Mind y’all I knew it took me hours of isolation and dedication to achieve the good grades I did earn, but it hurt nonetheless.

YEARS LATER

Approximately 4 years later, in the 8th grade when I dated my first boyfriend. The same peer, thought it appropriate to tell my best friend at the time, that they couldn’t understand how my boyfriend and I ended up together. He was weird and I was ugly. Oooff!, I’ve Yet to understand where all their hate came from. I can only guess but that’ll have to be a conversation for another day.

The reason why I’m bringing up these two instances that I’ve carried with me for over a decade is because bullies exist even in adulthood. Admittedly sometimes I’ve caught myself in moments where I’ve displayed behavior that wasn’t called for. And that’s what I think might make the difference …admitting when we are wrong. Or even admitting we don’t know or we need help. Or admitting that to some degree we might be jealous or envious perhaps even intimidated. Maybe it’s something to be determined on an individual basis, whether it should be shared. However, part of deciphering yourself involves facing your own insecurities, self-doubts, issues and faults. Take the time to gain understanding of all your scars and wounds, regardless of when and where they were created.

[4:40 AM]

[5:10 AM EDIT]

𝑃.𝑆. 𝐼𝑓 𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑢𝑝 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑛’𝑡 𝑔𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛 𝑚𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑓𝑢𝑟𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒.

𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑡𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠,

𝑀𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑖 [:),<3.]